Towards True Self

Sometimes the focus on a goal or a way of seeing and responsibilities can get in the way of living. Life can become semi automated. The set pattern of movement or routine, commute, and work can cause another world to not exist. Living in a city, disconnection from nature, it can happen. All it takes is a perception switch into presence? embodiment to break loose into high vibrations.

Visuals become vibrant or understandings can suddenly come into focus. It can be sparked by life situations that unfold like falling in love, having a baby or moving, a brush with death, or a breakup. It can also just occur from meeting one soul who inspires you! Consciousness shifts often go hand in hand with newness in circumstances. The lows sorrows and loss of faith transmute. Joy and being in the heart or in nature brings us up and out. When we have gratitude for the fleeting nature of an incarnation then we reset our optimism and trust. When we ourselves are of service to the whole we ignite hope in others and make the world a better place.

There is also the blessings of personal devotion. With sadhana vibrancy and color, the aliveness of nature all become amplified as well as intuitive guidance. Knowing and compassion are also heightened. When one is well rested and peaceful optimum presence is available. More happens without effort.

In the last few years I have been focused on the inner, on learning and honing my spiritual being.i have been in service but in a one on one quiet way. I have been more inward and solitary. Today at a friend’s urging I decided to go see a movie. It was what I needed to bring me back to myself. To just do something not in my norm.

I noticed since it has been so long since I bad been to that theater is there are no more ticket sales from humans. There are still those who scan tickets with digital devices. There was also no longer attendants accepting money at the garage. I have noticed automation coming and more and more with robotic person replacements. From retail, reception and coffee. It has not been that long.

The message of the movie itself reflected the positives of society we are moving towards. The expansion of consciousness, opening to our collective gifts and following prompts to follow our dreams.

As I drove home I took a different street past the encampments of people who don’t currently even have a roof over their head. It feels like the numbers are way up and the wet cold is even colder. I appreciate what I have which is warmth and a place to myself out of the elements. How do they get through all of this.

So I am in this space of seeing all that is. I feel the pace of the city quickening. On Christmas Eve I almost got run over by a car going 50 in a residential area. I am grateful that I am still here because I and as anyone reading this must know each purpose is important. I am glad I did not leave in that way. The ashram was across the street and it would have traumatic to others especially Christmas Eve day and the location.

That same night however I also heard an angelic choir at Grace Cathedral and enjoyed the company of two dear friends. The energy was so high!

Here is a quote for you:

“Never forget that you are one of a kind. Never forget that if there weren’t any need for you in all you your uniqueness to be on this earth, you wouldn’t be here in the first place. And never forget, no matter how overwhelming life’s challenges and problems seem to be, that one person can make a difference in the world. In fact, it is always because of one person that all of the changes that matter in the world come about. So be that one person.”

Buckminster Fuller; Architect Engineer, and Inventor

And one more

Something hit me very hard once, thinking about what one little man could do. Think of the Queen Mary — the whole ship goes by and then comes the rudder. And there’s a tiny thing at the edge of the rudder called a trimtab.
It’s a miniature rudder. Just moving the little trim tab builds a low pressure that pulls the rudder around. Takes almost no effort at all. So I said that the little individual can be a trimtab. Society thinks it’s going right by you, that it’s left you altogether. But if you’re doing dynamic things mentally, the fact is that you can just put your foot out like that and the whole big ship of state is going to go.
So I said, call me Trimtab.

R. Buckminster Fuller

Everything is shifting, the set point is a moving target which requires optimism, peace, awareness, faith, trust and adaptability. Stay positive and be the love you are! Go with the flow even when it feels heavy or foreign. Self doubt is only illusion. Everything is shifting and clearing! Let 2020 be your pathway to light. Be who you are and know even that your perception of that can shift. While the collective is important so is each being. There is no other you. Each person is gifted for what they are here for. No one has the same gift we are all like snowflakes. Even our voices are one of a kind. There is such a thing as a voice print and no two voices are the same. Happy New Year to a special soul!

Neighborhood Cat

There is a cat who doesn’t appear to have an owner in my neighborhood. She loves me and is learning to trust in me. She was so cold last night I sat and gave her my attention love and warmth. I decided I would let her stay inside with me. She was following me but she was literally on the fence. I tried to help her down and scared her. So I later left her a scarf to sleep on. Since then I have not seen her and or has been pouring rain. This scarf is now drenched in rain. I hope she is ok.

Technology to Pranashakthi

My issues with technology surpass the average persons’. In part, because I am a healer, my energy throws off GPS, streetlights, watches etc. creating a glitch. There is a word for this. It is called being a “slider”.

Recently my internet and phone crashed simultaneously. I wrote this blog at that time and it do not upload. I have heard predictions that at some point there may be some solar flares or something that kicks off electronics. I am not about catastrophe or even predictions but it made me think.

Let’s imagine all electronic devices completely died simultaneously. Even if it was only phones or internet. Here’s what we would not have at our fingertips. No gps, no email and no phone, no cloud, no instant access to recipes and no social media no contacts. We would not have Whats App making it possible to see or speak to loved ones anywhere or the world. So many conveniences operate on electricity and internet. For some people their stoves would not work. Medical devices, and more. So many things.

The internet makes everything instantly available. The advancement has positives in that inspiration via music, visuals or words can easily be transmitted. The world becomes smaller. It also becomes more energetically busy.

The one thing I did notice in this “living experiment” was my dependency on a device for anything from directions to keeping current with my business. Without a phone, this I was literally writing down directions. In the South Bay I am less familiar with the area and my night vision is not as sharp. I have embodied this luxury of GPS so I don’t worry about the exacts and save the drive space of my brain for other things.

Having internet in case someone needs healing is something I use all of the time. Although I do not need to have internet to heal remotely, a video call enhances the person’s experience and there is further information I receive by seeing.

Our device handles so much we don’t have to. We don’t have to memorize numbers, remember to pay bills by their due date many things are simply automated.

Automation frees our minds but it also amplifies what can be emoted through our field as in massive amounts of emails, and other types of media. Our minds can loose focus. This overstimulation can create an a feeling of pressure within the environment especially at this time of year.

Meditation is more important than ever. It is unclear the long term effects ot the pace of technology or how it reflects in the world. Besides the faster pace there are so many benefits. A charity can collect funds instantly, a sangha can’t stay connected, I can if I can talk her into it learn Hindustani Classical from Kankana Banerjee right now if she is free. The entire world can know in the blink of an eye that Ram Dass has passed to spirit which brings together so many hearts into a space of unity, gratitude and reflection on his contributions.

This access is a tool for growth or greater reach. One persons can use it to plan a trip to climb Mount Everest. It can be used to research a form of advancement in cleaning the environment. I can donate and within several hours time up to 300 hungry people can be fed directly. I myself use internet to send out Pranashakthi Healing anywhere in the world. I was able to send to Seattle and assist someone out of a coma but that was done without internet.

Remote healing doesn’t require internet but it is helpful to receive a message. It is also supportive for the person who receives to see it occurring because the connection is love and that provides a great deal of strength. As well as the importance of connecting.

My point in writing this was that by losing my data and my connection for some time, it enabled me to see and have space to contemplate more on the topic. Usually if a phone dies it is simply replaceable and no issue so that window of space is not there.

My issue was a larger and more complicated one so this blog is the silver lining. Since it is the holiday season I have decided to have an event at Yoga Society San Francisco. The ashram has a place to have Agni Hotra. In the spirit of bringing back in the grounding I am leading a ceremony for the New Year a few days early to avoid the crowds and to land it on a weekend. To lighten the pace and bring back serenity is my intension.

I will utilize the fire element’ mantra, Pranahakthi and meditation to set the space. If my students are in town we can together create an even stronger field of healing vibrations. Anyone who wants to learn the intro Pranashakthi I can provide Diksha and explain how to use the energy healing. All are welcome.

I will offer individual blessings and healing and we can use the fire (Agni) and the peaceful space resulting from mantra and healing to ignite our highest version of self. The gathering will end in Kirtan.

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photo credit black and whites – Jeffery Carrillo! Color – me 🙂 Thanks 🙏

Shooting Star

Last night I pulled in after a long day of commuting for the sake of Pranashakthi. I had also been looking for an open copy store since I had a commitment during the day with my guru. I am having a healing celebration on healing event next weekend on the 28th. Nothing was opened so I drove to Gillroy 12 miles, just as the doors were being locked.

The drive home was arduous as I was sleepy but I played and sang chants mostly to Krishna. This warmed my heart because I associate India with this time of year! There were many lights up in the South Bay so I was given uninterrupted time with myself to just be!

I was listening to the final song sung for Divine Mother as I arrived in San Francisco so exhausted! I was recording a lovely Bansuri Flute section for a friend who loves chanting and flute. I was sitting in my car looking up the hill. A bright and long shooting star fell right in front of me at eye level. This synchronicity lets me know I’m on the right path and affirms my gratitude for all such occurrences.

I cannot help people if they do not know that I hold gifts of healing within me. I can only shine my light. Word of mouth is amazing and it really is all there is, but I can no longer avoid my calling. I intend that I meet those who are ready or resonate with the work I do.

My event is Saturday Dec. 28th at Yoga Society San Francisco. I hope to see you!

Planetary Squeeze

Do you feel the churning pressure of this massive energy flow. The planetary weather has a not so subtle agenda to push us from our illusionary nests of Maya (ignorance) into our true nature and vocation within the heart of purity!

From bliss to frustration and back refines the soul. It is not easy to be upside down in this wave of forgotten mastery without knowing what end is up. The spinning sands block the sun creating confusion and urgency for our spirits. My lungs are somehow powerful enough to drift in this silent but active space. To return to Center wiser is the real point. Avoidance of mis creation in thoughts, words and reactions and deeds can be the ultimate test.

It is surreal time from a feeling perspective I cannot deny the density. Within this purification super spin the snakes of fear and emotion are spitting out poison from us all and mirroring out. This Maha purge of foolery is by design.

Every sorrow or mistake in action based on old patterns are being amplified to comic and cosmic proportions. The Sadika of my soul has left the cave in frustration to have a full blown temper tantrum of a child. I’m hoping this transitory mood doesn’t go viral either physically or energetically. But all joking aside there are times I just want to cry at taking so long to learn this or that lesson. That and 8 hours of electronics repairs.

Why such drastic density? What is the purpose of this vice grip and shakedown? Must everyone school me, the sudden amateur, in how to handle that which spews out to purify me. Yes I do ask for that mirror because I am far from perfect. And because that in itself is perfection!

What is underneath this is pure gold beyond this faux reality. Eyes that see the shine of the leaves. Is this what they mean by dark night of the soul? Deep purification? I used to roll my eyes with this topic until now. Always there is emphasis here is light and supreme clarity. With bright light there is also shadow.

I am grateful that I know without looking that there is something brewing in the in the stars and skies. Be gentle and be kind. I am grateful! I am love! I am in surrender. I honor each process I participate in. Namaste!

The Art of Writing

Writing is art. It is a soul being born, the unique words flow into being. The sentences choose themselves, a gift falling in from the mind and either. Instead of paint, the medium is connection, observation, feeling, reflection and presence.

This form of expression is both a mystical and alchemical process. Besides an objective key to spirit, it is a way of sharing viewpoints, love, beauty, hope, inspiration, vibration, healing and concepts. For me writing can also be a way for me to step outside of myself to see my process with objective fresh eyes. I is like editing a book for someone else as opposed to trying to edit your own book after working on it for hours. It serves as a step back.

I believe it is partially through writing that I learned that quality of stepping back mentally from situations in my life to see the whole wide picture, motives, truth and it has in part honed my ability to read situations. It is like Quora only the questions are answered by yourself. Some sadhus do this by observing silence. Writing, if you think about it, is a way of being deeply present with self to allow what has been listened to to manifest. I am grateful that as I grew I always kept journals to sort through my experiences. The cumulative practice pays off so I can now edit others writings as well as hone my own.

Meditation enhances the ability to receive inspiration and clarity because it is like soil for seeds. The birth of the pen to paper comes in at first through silence. I used to work in a darkroom for many hours. I would be in the dark in order to process up to forty rolls of film. I would play music and just feel the rolls of film as I placed them onto the cartridges. It was such a tactile presence. The deep focus opened my mind and poetry would come through. As I then developed the film it gave me more time. I would write in the dark. Once the process began it would continue outside of the darkroom.

With the distractions of the day and responsibilities it is now harder to carve out time to just be. This is one of my practices. It brings me joy to open my heart creatively.

Pranashakthi Rudruksha Healing Bliss

I am trained to do a deep healing with Rudruksha malas. The purpose is an overall regenerate session. First is to prepare the body to receive, them to clear any negative energies and finally to add nectar. These loving sessions utilizes the energies of Shiva.

Tonight I had a session and in the last aspect my body was burning up on fire with the energies coming through. The receiver however felt cool.

No healing is ever the same as each person is unique, like a river flows so does a being. Even the same person is never the same twice. Similarly the practitioner will also have different energy.

Right now I am feeling such a deep sense of peace and and can feel every cell and molecule of self. There are waves and waves of warmth as in love flowing. My third eye, crown chakra and throat and heart feel deep pulsations of loving pranic energy. The waves of contentment continue!

It is time for a deep sleep now.

I don’t talk about offering this type of healing often but I should because It is really a treat to receive even as the giver.